bestest guy fren's gig

went for bestest guy fren's gig today.. went early cos he say need someone to help him carry stuff.. so i went with him at 4 plus.. and waited with him until his performance which was delayed and started only at around 9..

think bestest guy fren is cut out for this.. he is so himself on stage.. and he is so happy being on stage.. i think its such a waste that he doesnt do this full time.. have a number of pics on my new camera.. cos i went to get it today.. but cos the adapter is with maximalist, i cant upload the pics tonight..

after that went for dinner with bestest fren, her bf and maximalist.. felt awkward during the dinner.. cos the 2 guys were not tokking.. and then when i tok to one.. the other doesnt join in and when i tok to the other, the first one doesnt join in.. after awhile i gave up.. so i just tokked to bestest fren..

u know wat bestest fren said is true.. when u relli like someone.. u wun think of other guys.. same for guys.. when u like one girl, u wun be thinking of other girls.. there is no such thing as loving more than one person at the same time.. it just means u dun love both of them.. such a simple logic..

was listening to some chinese song just now on the car ride home.. and suddenly it striked me.. that mebbe i have never relli loved someone before.. i have never tried changing myself for someone else.. i just hope to find someone that will accept me as who i am.. but its relli not that possible.. cos there are always bad traits of a person which should be changed.. mebbe thats why they say when a couple is together, they should be making one another a better person, improving one another in some way or other.. will i ever be able to find a guy who will make me want to quit shk-ing from my own free will? shall just wait and see i guess.. alright.. feel motivated to work tonight.. adioz..