further ramblings at 4am..

somehow not enuff of blogging today.. mebbe cos i didnt have access to internet the whole day.. so no msn.. no blogging.. no contact with the world outside loyang.. hhaaha.. so i shall continue my ramblings..

milan asked me to go IT fair with him on friday.. for him to buy some xbox thingee.. im going.. its better than going to genting rite? i still dunno whats up with him and what he wants with us.. and i know many pple like bestest fren, bum, bgf and bgffa will give me the tsk tsk look and ask me why i still continue going out with him.. i also dunno why leh.. mebbe its his tactic.. like fishing line like that.. pull a bit.. let go a bit.. i guess i have been pretty mean to him too during this period of time.. and im not that sort to be mean.. so i cant bear to be SO mean.. so.. i just give in.. haiz.. dunno whats up leh.. how ah how ah.. confused.. why am i doing all this?? mebbe im just tired of getting myself involved with someone new.. mebbe i just want to stick to the old one hoping that it will work out.. but then again.. somewhere deep inside.. i know that it wont.. haiz..

luckily i have work to keep me occupied.. and hence i dun relli have time to think about all this.. and i dun have time to continue quarrelling with him.. and he has been trying parts of the A-Z i guess.. but in my mind.. its stuck that he wun be able to keep it up for long.. cos he is just doing something that is not him.. okok.. enuff rambling abt him..

i just started reading this book by Jeffrey Archer.. its called False Impressions.. and its relli captivating.. hehe.. im like so stuck on to the book.. that i read it to sleep.. and then.. cos its so captivating.. i dun sleep much cos of it too.. hee.. terrible hor.. hopefully during my short stint at my parent's office.. i can start reading more.. that will be nice for a change :)

oh yah.. by the way.. for the pple who keep asking me.. i dunno when my last day is.. since i threw the letter on sunday.. i haven heard a single thing from HR dept.. i guess it will be on 5 April 2007.. exactly one month from the date i throw.. quite a convenient stop.. cos it will be between aeroplane house prefinals and finals.. some more that weekend is a good friday holiday.. hehe.. and my mum asked me to go for a short holiday with her :)

after that.. it will be the new work starting for me again.. im supposed to write my own employment letter for the directors in the company to sign (ie. my dad and my mum).. win oredi lor.. mebbe i should just state on the letter.. monthly pay of $10k.. transport allowance of $2k.. meal allowance of $1k.. hahaha :) and a bonus as long as I complete 6 months service.. haha :) i think im mad..

enuff rambling oredi.. satisfied.. gonna read my book to sleep now :)